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morriganscross
09 April 2012 @ 05:31 am
Insomnia freakin sucks. I'm going to drop in class I just know it. Maybe there will be a lively debate to wake me up. Or maybe Michael will storm out again after fighting with Tanya. Or perhaps angry girl will punch rich girl like she's been threatening to do. That will wake me up I'm sure. Of course I really don't want any of this to happen. It would be nice to see Michael stick around instead of letting Tanya and rich girl scare him off. He has a lot of good input to share but he gets so intimidated by them.
 
 
morriganscross
23 March 2012 @ 10:13 pm
Class was boring as usual but hilarious too. At the end of the night the teacher showed us a video of the asteroid hitting the Earth scare. That's when everyone started cracking jokes. Sooo many dirty and innapropriate jokes. It was great. I will share one of them with you. The guy behind us asked the teacher if Aerosmith would play a shitty song right before the asteroid would hit the Earth. Then Bobby said he hoped Ben Affleck and Bruce Willis wouldn't be responsible for saving the planet. Roman said they wouldn't cause they would be to busy being gay together to which I said. No. Bruce Willis can do better than Ben Affleck. Bully girl resposded with. Yeah Ben just isn't that hot anymore. Finally out class has unified over terrible humor.
 
 
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: anything but aerosmith's love ballad
 
 
morriganscross
16 March 2012 @ 08:54 pm
Upon returning home from Montana I stumbled across a series of most unfortunate events. I woke up not being able to breathe on Monday and seriously thought I was going to die. It seems my asthma didn't like Toledo air very much. Or I have sleep apnea. I have a test scheduled next week to find out.

Then a friend lied. This wasn't a close friend but it did hurt all the same and further confirmed what I already knew. She is a shitty friend.

Then Pat went into the ICU and we don't know she will make it.

Smokey is dying. I have days with him. Maybe even hours. I've had him for eleven years now.

I miss Chris like crazy.

I wrote Jon and told him we can no longer hang out as long as he has more than friendship feelings for me and cannot accept my relationship with Chris.

And this has all just worn me out and has me feeling sad and alone. But today God gave me some comfort and peace of mind. I know he's not very far away from me in all this. No matter what happens he will give me the strength I need. Things will get better again. It is the natural order if life. Balance. And death comes to all. Pat and Smokey have lived long lives. Long, good ones. Although I don't feel its the end of the road for Pat yet. She needs to pull through so we can go to garage sales this summer.
 
 
morriganscross
15 March 2012 @ 06:22 pm
What are you wary about today?
The liars
 
 
morriganscross
03 March 2012 @ 11:25 am
Dear lj friends I have been horrid at responding to comments because I have become addicted to checking lj from my phone and I need to get my lazy butt on my comp so I can reply. My apologies and I promise to do it soon.
 
 
 
morriganscross
03 March 2012 @ 10:58 am
In Wisconsin right now getting closer and closer to Chris *does happy dance*. I'm glad I decided to do this. I needed a vacation and to see him. Seems like everything at home has been going to hell since December and I need to see some new sights and refresh my brain so I can come back with a renewed outlook to finish the semester.
 
 
Current Mood: excitedexcited
 
 
morriganscross
03 March 2012 @ 06:48 am
Trip  
I'm visitng Chris for spring break. Although I may not be able to feel my legs by the time I get there.
 
 
morriganscross
24 February 2012 @ 12:59 pm
Feeling ill today. Lot of pain. Went to make sure nothing unusual for me was going on. Just my interstitial cystitis flaring up. They might do a bladder biopsy in the future just to be sure. Don't know if I feel its necessary to do one of those or not...Ill see what the doc says on Wednesday. My drinking pop doesn't help one bit. I need to kick that nasty habit for good.

I'm taking it easy today and saw The Help finally. I really liked it. I didn't think I would get into it that much but it was really inspiring. I hope Octavia Spencer wins an Oscar. I liked her acting in the movie.
 
 
Current Mood: sicksick
 
 
morriganscross
22 February 2012 @ 05:48 pm
Yesterday was highly amusing. I introduced Jess and Aaron and they have seemed to hit it off. I was reading outrageous stories to them from my phone. Some of the stuff people write I tell you....I'll never look at Jack Nicholson the same way again. *shudder shudder*.

Having a frustrating day today or was. Miscommunication with some peoples. My IC is acting up bad again so I couldn't get any sleep. The alternator in the car went out. I watched some New Girl and that show always manages to cheer me up. Then I checked the mail and got a reimbursement check from the gas company for almost the price of the alternator. Funny how things work out that way.

As for spring break I still don't know. I can't go see Chris because I have nowhere to stay out there until this summer. He still has no clue if he can come here yet. Looks like it will be a last minute thing to know what's going to happen. Oh well as dissapointing as it is I know I will for sure be seeing him in May. I just hope I can have some fun for spring break. Maybe spend a weekend at Leslies or have a mini adventure with Jess. Something to relax me.
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
 
 
morriganscross
18 February 2012 @ 10:32 pm
I'm so exhausted. I think I'm going to go to the doctor Monday I feel so sick and worn out and am having pain. I feel like I ran a marathon and all I did was go out for four hours with Roxanne. I'm going to lie down for a bit.

Me and Roxanne had an interesting discussion. She is a true friend but she didn't realize some things about me and I must say I was dissapointed because I thought she knew. I thought my changed actions would have told her. But I guess she did not know. I know we don't get together a lot but I just hope she really believes what I am telling her. I want her to know I'm not the girl I used to be. But then again it can take time to show someone you have changed.